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Nov. 3rd, 2009 | 12:12 am
It's been so long since we've last spoken. I've watched you change over these two years, from someone I loved so much, someone i was so close to, to a complete stranger. I've watched you on your highs, i watched you go wild, that scared me. Then something happened, something in you broke. I saw you fall, i watched as she left you, and you just shrank, shrank in every single way. Every single one of our attempts so start talking again have failed, and maybe it's because one of us isn't really making an effort, i don't know. I think it's the time apart that has created this awkwardness, we havent spoken properly since she came and the truth is, you don't know me anymore, the same way i don't know you.
Today you've been reduced to someone so passive, so.. closed. Every day i wish i could tell you how much it breaks my heart to see you like this. It really does. I find myself wishing i had done something before to keep you away from all the shit you've been through, wishing i had been a better friend, but it's always like this isn't it. Regret.
So, i don't know if i should go talk to you after O's. Now's not a good time, i dont want to fuck both our emotions up, not at this time. I miss you so bad but at the same time i dont know if you are who you used to me. I don't know if i'm who you used to know. Everyone has changed, everything is different now. We've been strangers for too long. Sometimes i just wish you could tell me what you want me to do.
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